This is How I Feel!

Stay Awake!
By Ellen Brown



Alone again within the night.
My spirit screams, I run in fright
Why must it always be this way?
That I am up slaving tile break of day.

For once, just once can I find rest,
Not have to bare this ignorance!
As time ticks on and life unfolds,
Like rushing wave with not control.

My heart breaks down and spirit sighs,
Why do all people play with lies.
They do not protect; they only wound,
They leave not hope for future good.

I sit here lost and full of shame,
What kind of witness to His name?
There is the map, there is the road,
But will He want my sagging load?

If that were true there’d be no sign,
Of direction to His Glory Vine.
There would not be that spark of Hope,
That makes me look beyond the smoke.

Up above this world so high,
I am the apple of His eye.
And yes, I fell off of my bike,
But must push past the comfort trike,

Must face the truth yet once again,
Must trust the payment for my sin.
Must keep in walking up hills so tall,
But not with strength I’ve gain at all!

I still sit here in cover of night,
The room is cold, the lamp is bright.
The empty space not gone away,
But it is clear He’s here to stay,

And from within the trumpet cries,
Heralding the truth from lies!
What once was lost has now been found,
There is not doubt I will not drowned.