Time!

I sit at my desk today in the midst of rain and fear. Why must my spirit have to fight so hard to have faith when my body is beat to the dust in fatigue? With every rain drop that falls, another minute in time hits the earth and is gone. My life seems to be on its way down the storm drain!
This semester started like every semester in my life began. Everything had its place; life was all simplicity. Just follow the pattern and in the end your these pieces of cloth will be a ball gown; sounded and looked easy enough! But oh, you did not cut these pieces right, must do it again; your stitches are not correct, must rip them and redo. In an attempt to get the product right, I have lost sight of the purpose. The point of learning is not to get the grade, but to gain knowledge! I am not being loaded assignments for the sake of pleasing my teacher; it is for the sake of knowing and applying. Therefore, my heart must not be dismayed in the new quest before me, but my heart still holds fear. I do not feel ready! Understanding has run through the streets of my mind in search of answer; it has found no home. I am lost and I do not know where to go to get on track. Time is still ticking on!
I look at Hamlet and I do not know where to begin. It is beautiful and full of meaning, but I do not get the concept, so what do I do. I understand what is happening in the story, but I do not know how to channel it into my own interpretation. Until then nothing of mine is down on paper, and the semester will not wait for me to collect my thoughts. I am all for the learning process, but with deadline breathing down my neck it gets hard to breath my thoughts out. I am not trying to raise complaint. Without the time goal all projects would never come to fruition.

God, you are the founder of understanding! Nothing can live apart from you; even the ways of man. Please help me to understand and execute what I know. I cannot do this on my own. You be my strength; I will wait.